Im not sure where this post will go... I have nothing imparticular to say... just a lot on my mind. First of all I want to say that I have some of the best friends in the entire world. Im sure they are all so so tired of hearing me whine... but thank you for listening :)
Also, I have recieved some comments and questions about my wonderful missionary Jake Thompson! He comes home on the 13th of August which is only 41 days away!! He has written me EVERY single week he has been gone. I am hoping I will be able to go to the airport when he gets off the plane, but it is a Footloose night so I may have to be here for the show... we shall see! He told me that his plane will land in Idaho Falls at about noon... hopefully there are no delays or anything so I can make it. My family has assured me though that if I can't go to the airport they will still be going. haha
As the date for him to come home approaches I find myself nervous, anxious, excited, and scared to death! Two years is a long time to be away from someone... my fear is that we have grown apart. Im scared that maybe I have held onto someone that it isn't going to work with in the long run. I have had many opportunites to let go of Jake and move on... but I can't seem to do it. I love him and I think that if I did let go without seeing if it was going to work I would always wonder "What if."
I have always been so scared of the unknown. I, like most people Im sure, prefer to have a plan, and right now my life is up in the air because my future depends so much on someone else and what they decide they want their life plan to be. I can honestly say that I have made my decision about Jake. I want to be with him, which is why I am going to transfer to BYU-Idaho to go to school with him. I want to things to work out and that would be very very difficult with us living four hours apart. Besides, we have done the long distance thing for FAR to long!!
I have never met someone quite like Jake. He is the kindest person I have ever met. Jake is always thinking of others and would never do anything to hurt someone else. In the 4 years I have known him he has never done anything or said anything to offend or hurt me. I have always been so supported by him. In the letters he sends me he always expresses his excitment to watch me perform this summer when he gets home. He, a wrestler, wants to come to Playmill next summer just so I can do what I love to do. HE IS AMAZING! I honestly feel completely unworthy of such a person to love me. He is the best friend I could ever ask for.
Anyway, I will be sure to keep you all posted on what happens :)